open | sending crystal

[extramural]

FORM: Sending Crystal
SENDER: The Outsider
RECIPIENT: Open!
WHAT: A morbid question.
WHEN: mid-month
WHERE: Skyhold
NOTES: Talk of death, horrifying things, the Outsider being himself.

Tell me. What would you consider a fate worse than death?

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[motherfucking_ghost]

Being stuck here with these humorless jackasses.

[He kids. Maybe.]

I dunno, would still being alive after dying count, since it wouldn't be death then if you couldn't die? But, I mean, not dying is basically worse than dying, probably, right?

[extramural]

Being stuck here is certainly- an experience.

[ Though it isn't like the Outsider is great at jokes either. ]

One can die and still exist in a form many would call life. I imagine it would depend on the state you are in.

[ichaer]

Probably suffocating under a bunch of those cute apple tarts you find in the really nice bakeries. I just love those tarts and them being the death of me is one of my worst nightmares.

[ A beat: ]

Being Orlesian ranks a pretty close second.

[extramural]

That would be quite a few tarts. I suppose one would be rather upset if they killed you before you could eat them.

[ note to self: try an apple tart ]

Orlesian in general?

[gatheringstorm]

Orlesian soirees.

Also being made Tranquil and that whole saarebas thing.

[extramural]

Do you not enjoy parties, Korrin?

[ he's being a shit ]

Tranquility I have... heard of. [ SO MUCH DISTASTE IN THAT TONE OF VOICE ] But not the other.

[circleprodigy]

A lack of libraries.

[extramural]

What if there were libraries, but no books?

[rowancrowned]

Worse than the fear of nothingness, or the pain of a violent death?

[extramural]

Either.

[in_death_sacrifice]

Losing control of yourself, acting against your will under another's command... Anything like that.

[extramural]

I take it you do not consume alcohol, then?

[provenforce]

Having your mind taken from you, by force. Not being able to stop it or fight back.

[extramural]

And being fully aware that it is happening?

[watchesandlistens]

Having an ethereal eavesdropper.

[ There is, for those who know him, a distinctly amused tone in his voice. water u doing bruh. ]

[extramural]

Ah, but my dear, how else will I know what you're getting up to? [ There's a low chuckle. ]

Speaking of- how do you find Thedas?

[thesteelwolf]

To lose my path and go mad.

[extramural]

Your path?

[justice_is_blond]

Tranquility, absolutely. When those who are Tranquil get a few moments of clarity and all they can do is beg to die rather than return to that...

[failedfirst]

Is that common, Tranquil gaining moments of clarity? [She's honestly curious, she doesn't really have a lot of experience with Tranquils.]

[el_tybs]

A fate worse then death. I suppose for myself it would being made Tranquil... or something just taking the entirety of me so I'm no longer myself.

[extramural]

If you were not yourself, would you be aware of it?

[failedfirst]

Are you at all familiar with the process in which darkspawn broodmothers are created?

[circleprodigy]

...I've been trying to forget what I heard about that.

[With about as much success as anyone else, from her tone.]

[issala]

Being worthless.

[extramural]

By your own measure, or someone else's?

[unsullies]

[ If only she could reply anonymously--... But, the question strikes with unexpected precision and she feels more compelled than usual to make such an admission to a stranger: ]

To lose myself. To descend into madness.

[ Like father, like daughter. ]

[extramural]

[ don't feel bad, he has lots of practice ]

And so being mad, you would not know you were.

[ancarrow]

Being made a slave.

[extramural]

That is specific, despite also being not at all.

You would not feel hope for escape, for freedom?

[foxsays]

Forgetting who I am, what makes me what I am. [There's a hitch in her breathing, and maybe she shouldn't be answering this still when she still feels cracked open and hollowed out.] Home forgetting me.

[extramural]

There is one thing about forgetting, my dear, [ and he softens, quieter for her than he is for most others. ] One can remember again.

[apostasia]

( dryly; ) Living.

[extramural]

Yet here you are, alive.

[fightorfright]

Living in a world ruled by chaos.

( She's so cheery. )

[extramural]

Chaos and Order go hand-in-hand. The world is full of chaos, even when it seems simple.

Perhaps it is not chaos you fear, but the unexpected.

[dontmiss]

Tranquility. Possession. Gettin' controlled by blood magic. Being killed really slowly? There's a lot of them.

[extramural]

You do not wish to suffer.

[petitchiot]

Dying pointlessly.

[ There's a faint, but very wry, smile on her face. ]

Why do you ask?

[extramural]

You wish to die for a cause, then. Not the words of someone who believes they will live to an old age, to die in bed.

I am curious. Many things about this world are different than my own.

[leadseasy]

[A soft but familiar voice, one he'll remember from an adventure in Val Royeaux:]

Being afraid forever. Being in pain forever.

[extramural]

[ Ah. He lowers his own voice to match, quiet and almost gentle. ]

Are you afraid now? In pain now?

[qunari]

Possession. Getting one of those demons up inside you. Creepy shit.

[extramural]

Have you seen it happen?