Allumin Etsija (
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crystal;
FORM: Crystal
SENDER: Allumin
RECIPIENT: Everybody in Riftwatch
NOTES: gay panic in a couple threads (kinda spicy)
um, hello? [the voice is very soft and nervous at first.]
Pardon my anxiousness, I'm, ah, not used to this kind of communication being so... open?
I was told I'd need a staff and some guidance in order to use my own magic properly here. The general outlook on mages, however, has me doubting if devoting the time is a good idea or if I should focus my efforts elsewhere. However, if it's not as bad as I'm making it out to be in my head, and someone were interested and able in assisting me, I'd be happy to discuss fair compensation for your time.
Also, upon some recent reflection, I suppose I should offer myself up to one of the divisions of Riftwatch - not Diplomacy though, I'm not equipped for that.
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[He looks over his impromptu paper fortress, surveying it.]
Well, I think that the conditions here are just right to let them mature. Aging them really brings out the vintage of the paper.
[If someone finds and returns them to the library, fine. If he gets in trouble for leaving them there, fine. If they are left alone until he can come back and return them? Even better.
He does take the open upright ones and shut them before setting them back down on the table though, then rises to his feet. There's a moment where he seems to hesitate, wrestling with himself before eventually looking Loki in the eyes.]
Thank you for this - for coming to see me. [Having the courage to be candid, emotionally vulnerable is a struggle, and he's trying really hard to control his breathing and not go completely weak in the knees (Loki's smile, once again...).]
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The thanks are unexpected and something not unlike surprise flits across Loki's features before he closes his eyes and shakes his head, still smiling. ] Next time I won't announce myself from behind you, [ he promises, in lieu of telling Allumin he needn't thank him. It's nice, he supposes, to do things for others like this. It isn't terrible by any stretch at least, and it's cost him only... a now slightly less sore arm and a sliver of pride but he's lost the latter before and over less. ]
Come on, [ he says, taking Allumin's arm as he had at the tourney. ] To the docks, and then to Hightown. Hopefully, we won't get rained on along the way.
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There's something about what he said, his face, how he said it that lingers heavy on his mind. After some consideration of what to say, he speaks with a different kind of anxiousness than he has before. There's concern, maybe guilt too, behind it.]
Only if you want to - the announcing thing -, [He clarifies, to be sure his context isn't misunderstood.] I don't want you to change who you are or your behavior for my benefit.
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You mean that, [ comes out with more than a little surprise, but in the next moment he raises an eyebrow. ] I merely meant to avoid being struck by objects one might have at hand.
[ That's a lie, actually, mostly because lies are where he is the most comfortable and partially because he doesn't know what to do with Allumin’s earnestness and unexpected kindness. ]
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[He has a feeling there's something more going unsaid, but he doesn't press. Instead, his expression takes a turn toward playfulness as he casts a glance in Loki's direction.]
You should feel lucky I'm a wizard then and not a fighter. It would have probably hurt more.
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[ This is said pretty casually; bruising from something as simple as a book is a new and fascinating experience, actually, and now that the pain is not at the forefront of his mind he doesn't care. As much.
He still cares a little. Bruises should be from battle or from bedrooms, not startling people. ]
I think if you had been a fighter instead of a wizard you'd get along with my brother better than I, but he's not here. [ Well. The version this Loki knows isn't here; presumably Thor d'Asgard is running around Thedas somewhere, probably in Tevinter. ]
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[They met and bonded over magic, sure, but that couldn't have been totally out of the question for this theoretical even if he had been a fighter instead. There are some paths that still lead to the arcane even if you prefer to fight with a sword, or mace, axe, whatever.
And if he didn't have any magic at all, but still ended up here, he'd hope to be enough of the same person that if the meeting had been different they could still have moments like this one.]
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Possibly not.
[ He doesn't know, really, how much of who Allumin is would change based on what he does for a living, or however he would consider being a wizard versus being a fighter. ]
Hopefully not. [ It's not like Loki has a lot of friends, is it? ]
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[And then he draws back, casual enough to pretend that the fleeting moment maybe didn't happen.]
I rather enjoy spending time with you.
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Still. It's Good, Also to see Allumin smile like that and to know it's his fault? Even better. ]
I can easily say the same. [ He reaches over and pats Allumin's hand. ] Spending time with you is quite nice, actually.
allumin played himself in this one, the fool
Only quite nice? Well, I'm going to have to do better than that, aren't I?
[He says it in a playful manner, but he does also start to consider what sort of things they could do together that would have Loki saying more about their time than just it being 'quite nice' - which unfortunately leads his imagination down a road to things that are bordering on if not completely indecent. This leads to him turning even more red in the face and looking away.
There are plenty of Perfectly Platonic Things he could think about, but instead his mind is caught up on all of Loki's casual little touches. Confidence from earlier, come back!]
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I, personally, would not say there's anything wrong with 'quite nice', considering our interactions thus far. Though I suppose there's always room for improvement. [ He reaches over with his free hand and attempts to turn Allumin's face back in his direction. ] You do blush quite nicely, however. How far down does that go, I wonder?
[ So much for platonic anything, really. ]
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And of course, the musing as well only leads to Allumin imagining himself bare in front of him as he finds out the answer firsthand. Which leads to another little sound somewhere between a whine and a moan escaping on shuddering breath.
Words, Allumin, do you remember how to use them?]
I, ah, mm, - [words] - it's fine. [His eyes keep darting up and down Loki's face, lingering on his eyes and then scanning when that's too much and then lingering on his lips and rinse and repeat.] 'Quite nice' is fine.
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I am interested in you, Allumin.
[ He laughs, a subtle flash of teeth, before his hand on Allumin's chin shifts to touch his cheek. ]
I want to know what sort of sounds you make when you're overwhelmed and there's no one else there, amongst other things; but that doesn't have to be today if you'd rather wait. Think about it, and let me know.
[ Either way, they're going to get on this ferry and then make their way to Hightown and the apartment Alexandrie has granted Loki the use of. There will be drinks, and it'll be fun, even if Allumin decides he'd rather not fall into bed right away.
Loki just enjoys giving people options. ]
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[He can't help but lean into the touch, a comfort to the absolute rollercoaster he is on right now. There is equal parts relief and a new, different excitement that comes with the affirmation, and Loki's words and the glimpse of teeth work together to conjure images of all manner of touches and noises they might inspire.
He tries to wade past the images swirling around in his head to speak, but it's hard. It feels like his throat is stuck and he can't say anything at all, but he wants to be clear that he does want to, he is also interested, just some kind of positive reciprocation... but he can't quite do it, so he does something else instead.
Allumin reaches up, fingers lightly grazing across the side of Loki's neck to become a firm grasp at the base of his skull, and pulls him into a kiss.]
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Whatever it is, he feels prepared to receive it.
Kissing is great, though. It leaves very little room for confusion, in the moment.
It starts soft enough. He does part his lips just to nip at Allumin's bottom lip before flicking his tongue against the skin he'd just bitten. ]
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He really wants to keep going but at this rate they'd probably get in trouble for indecency.
It's a struggle to get himself to pull away however, as he takes Loki's upper lip between his own for a moment, lost in finally knowing what this feels like with him. Then, he wins the fight against himself and withdraws but only just enough that their lips no longer touch.]
Hhhopefully that communicates, um, how I feel on the matter.
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It does, thank you. [ His hand is still on Allumin's cheek, which he gives a little pat, before taking half a step back. ] Let's get on the ferry, shall we?
[ They can kiss more there, is his plan, and at least be on their way towards their destination. ]
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Yes, let's.
[His legs are pretty much on autopilot at this point (head too full), following along at whatever pace Loki sets as they board the ferry.]
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He lets go of Allumin's arm as they sit down, turning in his seat to give his attention fully to the other man. ]
You're not a bad kisser. [ For the record. ]
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Thank you, I - [what does he even say to that...?] am glad you enjoyed it.
[too polite, not sexy at all. He tries not to laugh at himself for it, but a small chuckle escapes anyway.]
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Are you always so shy?
[ His tone is not one of complaint, but of curiosity. ]
Or am I just inspiring in that way?
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I can be assertive - in certain situations... [oh gods, he is really going to elaborate, isn't he?]
But if I'm not, um, you know, in that particular frame of mind, well - not to say that you aren't also inspiring--! [Because he definitely is.]
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So you're a switch? [ To put a fine point on it. ] Good to know. What would you like most to get out of this scenario this evening?
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He peers at Loki through his fingers.]
Are you really asking this here? In public? [His ears are also starting to redden.]
I - ah - [He swallows. Despite his question, he's trying to think of what to say as an answer anyway.] uhhm.. Well... I think, maybe... [He's not getting very far, eyes flicking between Loki and the other passengers.]
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