Crystal

[in_death_sacrifice]

FORM: Crystal
SENDER: Kain
RECIPIENT: Everyone!
WHAT: Late night musings about troubling information
WHEN: Now-ish
WHERE: Wherever the griffons are at the moment (but the post is open to anyone anywhere of course!)
NOTES: Brooding warning always applies

It's a late hour, but... indulge me with your thoughts, if you will. [He can't sleep, which is a frequent occurrence. Thanks, Warden nightmares. Though this time, he's trying a different tactic than usual to beat the insomnia. Talking to the Crystal almost seems like a good idea, so why not?]

Is it worth believing in fate? Is life set in stone, a scripted play by the Maker that we're all simply acting in... or is it more open-ended than that? Could it be possible that even seemingly insignificant actions really can change what's to come? That even just one decision could drastically alter everything else in your life? I've... been wondering about this lately. What might my life had been if I'd become a Templar instead of a Warden, for instance? If my ancestors had settled in Ferelden instead of Orlais? So many possible ways in which it all might have turned out differently...

[The letters that Ser Coupe had delivered are really getting to him. He's spent hours pouring over them, analyzing everything from the words themselves to details such as the way the writing looks, or the paper it's written on. He's spent a lot of time just trying to read things that were scribbled out. The indirect warning from his future self was chilling, and... he thinks there may be a chance to alter it. Maybe. Maybe not. He's still thinking it over, wondering about the action that he could take next.]

If you had a chance to go back and change something about your life, would you?

Comments

[wardeneructate]

Blue, you should learn how to drink your feelings away.

[What. He's never done that himself. Shut up.]

[in_death_sacrifice]

[That's the second time he's called him that. Maker's ass, has he reached nickname status now? Uh oh...]

Drinking can help for a time, but it's only ever temporary. Then there's also the headache after you wake up the next morning.

[wardeneructate]

[You sure have, Kain. Congrats.]

Sure. If you stop drinking. If you keep on drinking that headache only comes about once in awhile.

[Is he maybe sort of admitting he drinks to escape pain? Maybe. Sort of.]

[in_death_sacrifice]

[Great, just what he needs!]

Does that really work? In the long term?

[It definitely does explain all the drunkenness...]

[wardeneructate]

The drinking to run from your problems or the drinking to run from a headache?

[in_death_sacrifice]

Hm... well... how about either of them?

[wardeneructate]

Drinking doesn't fix a sodding thing and it won't ever. Just makes it feel better for a bit.

[in_death_sacrifice]

But then what use is it, achieving temporary relief, if it doesn't solve anything? The problem is still there even if you ignore it.

[wardeneructate]

Depends on whether or not you got what it takes to fix it.

[in_death_sacrifice]

At the moment, I've no idea if I do. But I'm going to have to try fixing it regardless.