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FORM: Crystal
SENDER: Herian Amsel
RECIPIENT: everyone with a crystal
WHAT: Deep Thoughts & Dogges
WHEN: during Nevarra stuff, prior to the dragon hunt & Necropolis Thriller Reenactment.
WHERE: Nevaaaarra
NOTES: content warning for themes of loss & death. Also just a heads up that Herian is (still) a big jerk about the Dalish and rebels/eager apostates

Inquisition,

( she starts, and then there is a moment of pause. Her accent is stronger than it was before her trip to Starkhaven, renewed by proximity even if it has already softened from what it had been there. She speaks with that same, inevitable control, but she does not sound quite the same type of calm as usual. )

How do you best honour the dead? Recently or long departed. I would be glad to know.

( Just a casual question, nbd.

She sure doesn't sound like "glad" should be a description of her ever, but maybe given the content she can be forgiven. There's a small bark, and though it cannot be seen, rest assured that Herian is frowning at the source. There is a measured pause, before Herian adds, )

And if any could advise me what to do with a small canine that sees fit to prance about wherever I go, I'd be grateful.

( Quietly exasperated, to the dog as she moves to end the post, ) You're too short for the stairs. Accept it.

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In this instance, I don't think actions can undermine intentions. The only person who will truly be affected is you. You can only undermine your intentions if you act counter to them.

❰ see previous part of the conversation about adalia's views on the dead and their interest in what is done on this plane once their soul departs it. ❱

Act with integrity, in the manner in which you can best approximate would be your parent's wishes. Trust your gut in that regard; your instincts will serve you better than overthinking. And then just keep doing that, for as long as you feel you need to, ad nauseum, until it doesn't hurt to imagine not doing it. This is for you, not the deceased, nor anyone else.

There is my family to consider, as well.

( But that concern is likely to be... complicated and tangled up with the details and complexities of different actions. That would require explaining what it is to be elfblooded in an alienage, an oddity within the family, and a reminder of hurts inflicted on prior generations. It would require explaining why she was no longer able to see her mother, how her father died, and a great many things. It would require explaining her cousin's disgusted frustration over elfbloods, as though he had forgotten one of them was in the same room with him as he lamented their inaction in the same breath as not wanting them to be involved, because they could hide, and this wasn't their fight.

It would require a great deal that might not be relevant, but that Herian archives within herself and pages through daily, hourly, whenever memories are stirred. )

I think you are correct, nonetheless. Thank you, for your thoughts.

If you are acting in accordance with your parent's wishes to the best of your knowledge, and your conscience speaks loud enough that you pay attention to it, your family's disapproval would say more about them than you, I think.

❰ not that adalia really knows — having no family means she can never really speak to things such as this. all she knows is what feels right, and she lives her life following her gut more often than not. ❱

You're welcome. I hope I helped, Knight Enchanter.