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FORM: Crystal
SENDER: Kain
RECIPIENT: Everyone!
WHAT: Kain got himself injured and has been really out of it this month. Now he's come to! And he's taking the last step before he confess something to someone.
WHEN: Now-ish
WHERE: Kirkwall
NOTES: No warnings.

[Kain sounds very weary, just a bit out of it somehow. Though at least he's finally up for using the crystal, for the first time in a good while. It worked well enough last time he had something nagging at his mind, so why not now? It's technically related, since he figured out what he has to do, but... it's not going to be easy.]

If there was something you had to tell someone, and you weren't sure how to approach it... where would you even start? I'm not sure if I... [He trails off, letting that whole train of thought go, not having any way to complete it. He's had too much time to think, lately.]

I'm getting far too restless here... if anyone can manage to help me sneak out of this place, I'll owe you.

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[There is the fact that he's had to go to the crystals twice about things relating to this matter. Yeeeeah.]

Perhaps just a little? I don't know. It's perhaps... [Ugh ugh ow, so much pain, ok ow. He takes a moment to steady himself.] ...the hardest thing for me to consider doing...

It's not going to get easier by you working yourself up about it. So, rip off the bandage and get it over with.

...not literally, don't get the healers mad at me.

The healers are mad enough at me, I can't dare risk such a thing, sadly.

But I do see what you mean. It's just... not easily done, for me. I'm more of one to dwell than... otherwise.

Yeah, so stop it. Dwelling isn't doing you any favors, is it?

Humans....

It's not as if I can help it. I've always been one to dwell... it's just who I am, and...

Wait, are you saying that Qunari don't ever dwell? Truly?

Bullshit, you can help it. You just need some mental discipline. Try being a mage, I hear it does wonders.

Sure, but not to extent you run with it. We're a pragmatic bunch.

If I were a mage, I would have been demon-possessed a long time ago. I'd be long dead. You can't deny that. [Mental discipline has really never been his strength.]

I can certainly believe that, knowing you.

Nah, I don't think so. You've had to have learned mental discipline from day one; that training sticks with you long after. And I'm not talking about the Circle shit, that's just setting people up to fail. But really, if you were a mage? You'd be pretty damn strong mentally to have survived by now.

...I'm not sure why I'm talking about what-ifs. Go tell whatever you have to tell to whoever needs to hear it.

You're assuming too much about me... that I could have lived this long, as a mage... I somehow doubt it. [Brood, brood, brood. He doesn't have a very high opinion of his mental capabilities. Not after he was controlled and used the way he had been.]

Believe me, if it were that simple, I would have done it already. I appreciate your directness as always, though.