( Ah. Maintaining the public discussion and the private one is necessary. This requires pause while she thinks out how to puzzle-piece her response together. What parts would better be public versus private.

Ultimately, she decides to make all private. That spoken aloud cannot be snatched back, but all can be disclosed later, if deemed beneficial. )

I think I understand. I am willing to take steps towards that end.

( She pauses, weighing up the words that of relevant interest and necessary for understanding. )

There were times I struggled much with emotion. It burned at me, at times, and felt paralytic in others. The burden of feeling intensely while attempting to navigate the correct path has been destructive to myself and even those held dear to me, in times past. As much effort as I had made to diffuse the stark view I had of things, I had by no means overcome it entire. Some elements of it are doubtless amplified in my present state.

There is the possibility that I am more useful now. I did not wish for Tranquility, but in having it, duty prompts consideration of potential merits.

I am not declining the reversal. Only considering the balance of concerns and benefits.