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[in_death_sacrifice]

FORM: Crystal
SENDER: Kain
RECIPIENT: Riftwatch
NOTES: Commentary on the Petitioner's Path... and lots of birds

Is it truly possible to be too hard on yourself? I'd always thought it to be fair and just to take a stern approach toward one's self. A man must be disciplined and honorable above all else. He must be willing to face his mistakes, to redeem himself of his sins. Yet... could it be that there is a such thing as too much self-criticism?

On another matter, does anyone know if there exists a repellent for birds? Apparently, I've attracted their attention a little too well. If I stand still, they perch upon me. If I shake them off, they simply circle around with mocking noises. Please advise. Thank you.

[If his stupid pet Bastard's affection for him is any indication, this was inevitable, and probably has no real solution, other than simply dealing with it.]

Comments

[doneisdone]

You could try shooting them.

[radiosa]

[in_death_sacrifice]

I could, but it seems an awful waste. They mean no harm, only annoyance, or so it would seem. If I only had a way to scare them off, perhaps...

[radiosa]

[ Cheerfully: ]

No one likes a wallower—probably even the Maker.

[in_death_sacrifice]

But isn't that somewhat confusing? Doesn't the Maker want us to repent for our sins? Surely there's no such thing as repentance...

[Or is there!?]

[radiosa]

You repent, and then you do better. Spending all of your time worrying about what you have done wrong takes away time you could spend doing something good.

[in_death_sacrifice]

You seem to be very knowledgeable about this topic... what you're saying does make a certain sort of sense. I've always preferred taking action whenever possible.

Do you think there's ever a time when you're done repenting, though? I have a feeling it may be something that one might have to do for the rest of their life.

[radiosa]

If you keep doing new things that require new repentance—

[ she says, brightly, like someone for whom that isn’t really a concern, because she’s delightful! clearly! ]

— then maybe you did not do it properly the first time. Feeling sorry about what you have done wrong doesn’t mean anything if you keep doing the same things wrong afterwards.

[in_death_sacrifice]

So then you must make a true effort to change. To become a better person. I know that's what must be done, but it truly is easier said than done, sometimes...

But there's no turning back, so it's not as if I have a choice but to keep trying to do things in the right way.

[radiosa]

Just so.

[ So simple! But, still: ]

Is there something specific you are worried about?

[in_death_sacrifice]

It's hard to say... I worry about a great deal, and I worry all the time. Although... there are things I've experienced in my past that I'd rather not repeat. That's the main thing I suppose that I'm worried the most about.

[radiosa]

Do you know what caused them? Those experiences.