If you're expecting me to feel sorry for you, you're out of luck. Korrin's already told me what you're trying to do and for the record, I think you're setting yourself up for failure. The thing is, you're going in with what the Chantry does. You don't have to. It's not like they're in your heads spying on you. All that paranoia is the shit you're taking in with you. Look at the Maker, you think he's turned his back on you and gone off in a huff. Our gods aren't like that. The reason I'm laid up like this is because I've dragged my feet on something I was meant to do for a fellow warrior, when I put it right.