Do you think, perhaps, that a wish for such immediate consolation may have been what drove your previous mistakes?

It is difficult to sit in discomfort. I do not find it, myself, any easier. And I have sought my own methods of avoidance. But I do find myself wondering if that is not the thing that you most needed, and may in the future need again, to learn to do.

( her efforts to avoid that shame had created it; it isn't exactly something that's unique to her. riftwatch is littered with examples of self-destruction, of the architects of their own miseries. petrana herself is not immune to falling into that trap, or else she might not know it so well to describe it now. )